I gained 58 pounds during my twin pregnancy.
Whoa.
I knew I was getting big, but it was kind of a gradual heft that came on, so I didn't feel huge...except for in my belly. And in my swollen legs and ankles, which I now know was due to my severe preeclampsia/HELLP syndrome.
I still looked really pregnant in the days after they were born. But now I just look like I eat a lot of cheeseburgers and drink a lot of beer.
I've lost 39 pounds so far. And that's 39 pounds from doing absolutely nothing. So it was encouraging when it started coming off. But there's still 19 pounds that haven't budged in weeks. So it's that 19 pounds that I have to work off to go to get back to pre-pregnancy weight.
I don't feel fat...until I step on the scale or try to squeeze into my pre-preg jeans -- a feat I attempt about once a week.
It's sad. I always end up feeling really frumpy.
First the jeans only went to about mid-thigh. Now I can get them up...with a lot of wiggling, but there is no way they are even close to zippering. Even if they were, I kind of look like a sausage stuffed in.
At least my boobs are massive so they balance out the bigger hips.
19 pounds.
I'm thinking of a workout routine I should start. I'd love an exercise bike.
But I'm also about to eat a cookie.
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