Grrr. What is going on with me? I am feeling very aggro the last two days.
I had a nice meeting with my doula, all calm, talking about meditation, getting her up to speed on what's going on in my pregnancy.
Then my hubs and I decided to go out to lunch.
I had a yummy shrimp salad with asparagus and white beans from one of my favorite French restos, and when we were done, I wanted to stop in this lingerie shop to see if something caught my eye as a little special gift to my friend who is about to get married.
While crossing the street, we almost got hit by a girl on a wobbly bike riding the wrong way up the street. She gave us attitude yelling EXCUSE ME!!!!!
So my husband tells her that she is going the wrong way. She says (in a snotty way) she is watching a kid. Mind you, that kid is riding a motorized bike on the sidewalk. I believe that's illegal. Definitely not safe.
I got a little mouthy and told her she could have been nicer about it. Then she attacks me. Verbally. Says something I couldn't quite make out, but it involved little girl, possibly a curse word, and some other mumbling.
So I lashed out and told her fuck you. (Sorry unborn kids.)
She fucks yous back to me. Then says something about how I should leave Brooklyn and then rides her bike on the sidewalk. (Absolutely illegal -- I know people who have gotten tickets for this.)
I was born in Brooklyn, live here now, and I'm 36, AND visibily pregnant, so this infuriates. But I'm already across the street and, well, pregnant.
There were spectators, who were on our side. One guy said to my hubs and I, "What a crazy bitch." So I didn't feel so nuts.
But I wanted to kick her ass. It was like 1996 me came out. Oh when I was young.
Obviously I'm not going to get into a street brawl, but I was so angry.
Then I had a dream that night that a man first pushed me, then punched me in the stomach. All because I was deaf in one ear and couldn't hear what he was telling me. Note: I'm not deaf in one ear.
The dream freaked me out. Apparently so did the bike girl altercation.
A day later and I'm still all amped up. I need to zen out. I'm going to drink a juice box.
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